I'm really sorry that i never had a post up for yesterday... i had to leave work urgently and go and say goodbye to Lucky.
Lucky was my boyfriends Chow...he was a light brown coat and was so fluffy and had this cute purple tong, did you know that that chow dogs actually have a line of bear in them...i can totally see that. Wait let me show you one of them...
Lucky was a biscuit brown and had such a soft coat...
We went to the vet with just his leg being sore so much so that we had to carry him to the vet...after a nights over stay and some x-rays they found out that he had a cancerous tumor in his leg that had spread to his lungs...his leg would of had to be amputated but it was to late because it had already spread to his lungs...
My boyfriend got the call since lucky was his companion, however it was more his fathers, we hadn't seen him in ages and we only got told of his sickness so late, his parents weren't the ideal dog lovers, they treated him not very well and we couldn't take him from them as we stayed in an apartment and had no where to keep him...
I phoned Matthews father to tell him that we had made a reservation at the exclusive(very hard to get into) doggie parlour 'Twisted whiskers' he was also having a hydro therapy treatment...Matthews father said that he didn't think that Lucky would make it till then.
HE WAS RIGHT.
We took him that same night to the veterinary hospital, which was excellent, and something just told me when we walked in there that we weren't going to see him out there again.
I WAS RIGHT.
We got a call the next day from the hospital saying that we had to put him to sleep and that he was in too much pain and that he was dying.
OUR HEARTS DROPPED.
Matthew picked me up from work and we both drove in silence with tears running down our faces and a feeling of pain surrounding us in the air.
We got to the hospital and waited with Lucky in his cage for 20 min before the vet came out of theatre...those 20 min were the hardest...he whined in pain and he didn't eat or drink, it was if he knew what was coming, we sat in tears trying to comfort him and trying to tell him he is going to be fine and that he is going to have a long sleep and will feel much better, we said that he wouldn't be alone.
OUR HEARTS WERE BREAKING.
We both sad there going through tissues like it was going out of fashion...
The vet came and as we saw him, i felt it to become very real, Lucky had fallen asleep with all the rubs Matthew was giving him. The doctor took us through and showed us the x-rays...
WE KNEW AND HE KNEW THAT IT WAS THAT TIME.
He brought Lucky in and Lucky managed to limp to the table of where he was going to leave us, he hadn't been able to walk but now he put in his last strength into it.
They put him on the table and we rubbed him telling him he was with us and all was going to get better.
WE SAID GOODBYE.
The vet came in and put a beautiful blue liquid injection into his leg and we stood there stroking him.
I heard Matthew say his last words...
LUCKY TOOK HIS LAST BREATH. IN - OUT
And as the blue liquid was finishing....
HE WAS GONE.
His dead body lay there as the second injection went through his system.We could hear nothing, pure dead silence. It was chilling.
We took his collar and left his body there in the room...
At home i looked at that collar, it still had some of his soft hair in it, it smelt like him, at that point i registered we were never going to see him again. I cried and cried and cried...not because he was gone but because he couldn't say his last word to us...he could say nothing, not even goodbye.
It made me upset and irritated...
Matthew and i spoke about it and we've decided that Lucky will inspire us to do more for animals....to tell more people about animal abuse and to stop other dogs from suffering, i decided that if i could, i would try to give EVERY ANIMAL a voice. I'd try my utmost best.
Because a life must never be forgotten and for us it never will.
Keep shining and care
Kindness and Hope
Kelly-Leigh
P.S.....This is just the start Lucky.
Thinking of you.
Matthew and Kelly
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